i've had time to calm down and process all this crazy, and while i'm sure i didn't choose the best words to explain things, i stand by what i said. i may love zach, and i definitely worry about him, but loving and caring about someone dont make it right to be made feel the way i have been made to feel. i've got nothing left to say and i've got no feelings left other than disappointment and worry. and i cant live a whole life with only those two things. so i'm gonna hope for the best, see hope in little things around me, and try my very very very best.

i had a really good dinner downtown at the Finch. sometimes it's nice just sitting at the bar and talking to the owner (who i know) eating the best dessert on the planet.

i've got a lot on my brain. i always do. worrying about so many people for so many reasons. not being able to do much help for any of them. such is my life.

i hope everyone out there is well.