So tomorrow after work I'm going with Ryan to watch him get a tattoo. In my mind this will take away some of the fear. In reality I may puke in his lap. Either way it should be exciting?

And. Before you ask who Ryan is he is a guy i am sorta seeing. We've been talking for awhile now and have hung out a few times. So far I really enjoy his company. I've been up front with him about how wary I am about everything and he's been very cool about it all. I don't know if anything will come of it, but I'm enjoying his company for now and we will see what happens.

I can't believe it's nearly Christmas already. This year. Wow. Just wow. To kick of the new year I've decided to do the Whole 30 eating challenge. No processed food. No dairy or bread or sugars. It's going to be hard as hell. But. I want to keep getting healthier and this seems like a step in the right direction. Bootcamp is kicking my ass all over the place but I can already tell a difference in a short time. Tonight we did arms and I know tomorrow it's going to be nearly impossible to dress myself. But it's so worth it.

I hope everyone is doing well. Love you all always :)

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Happy thanksgiving everyone. I've got so much to be thankful for this year. So many things, good and bad have happened in this last year and I think (I hope anyway) every one of them has helped me grow and become a better person. This time last year I was a complete mess all over again and now.. Well I'm thankful for the direction I'm heading in, the friends and family who love me, and the new people I'm meeting every day.

I'm thankful for my godson, my birthday vacation, my many charity 5Ks, my lead position at work, for all the fun and funny moments with friends and all the laid back lazy moments with family and friends. New friends and old friends, watching them all get married and have babies and be happy and grow. I can only hope in this next year I continue to appreciate the many blessings I have in my life and the opportunities I've been given.

All my love and sunshine to each and every one of you!



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Dear blog,
I feel like I've got nothing of Interest to write. I've nothing much to plan for other than the upcoming holiday. Well that's not true either, I'm going to the game this weekend and then will be home for the next and then possibly the one after for my cousins baby shower. I'm glad the holidays are a busy time. I've been trying to do more charity activities and am thinking about possibly being a big sister after the new year. Though i don't know if I'm very much a role model type that they'd want for that kind of thing. But, it's something I want to look into more. I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything if I'm not helping someone else.

Works been wearing lately. Something has to change but I don't know what that is. I wish I could just win the lotto and be set for life and then could afford to go work for some small publishing company on a crummy salary. Or I might have to revert to my plan of marrying an aging doctor and being a trophy wife. Harhar.

I had a long talk with my friend Jeremy tonight about life and how he is single for the first time in a very long time and how different and scary it is. And it is. But I don't think I fully believed it myself until talking to him that I am completely happy with myself in such a way that if for some reason I didn't meet anyone down the road, I'm still happy enough with myself to not feel empty or not complete. I feel like meeting someone would just be an added bonus. And I never thought that before.

It's a good feeling.


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I got to meet baby Lucas yesterday! He's so tiny and brand new. Completely melted my heart.













Shainna and Bryan are beginning one amazing adventure.

I went to the mall afterward to have dinner with a friend and people watch. It's super busy places like that where I feel the very most alone.

Today I enjoyed this strange beautiful weather and read a whole book. Bc I'm that kind of nerd.

I haven't found what I want in life but I know more each day what I'm looking for. I see the people in my life as role models. I try not to judge, but I know what I'm looking for. I just hope I'm lucky enough to find it.

And happy Veterans Day to all the vets and their families. All the history books in all the world can't contain all the stories and the memories and the hurt love and compassion experienced.

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Shainna is having a baby as we speak. Today I ate some burritos.

Clearly I'm doing something wrong.

I'm so happy for her And Bryan and I can't wait to meet Lucas, hopefully this coming weekend. They are a real little family unit now. I won't like that I don't think my eyes can get any greener with envy. I'm so overwhelmed for them so I can't even imagine what they're feeling. It's all so exciting.

This weekend was another great weekend in the charleston/Huntington area. It's nice that so many of my closest friends live there now and I can see all of them when I make a trip. I think at this point if Amanda and/or Lish would happen to move there I would pack up and head there too. It's actually not so bad and I like it more than here. I'm gettin the itch to get out of this town again.

But. It was good to visit with everyone and go to mountain stage at the Keith Albee theater. If you have never been, you should go check it out. It's an amazing old building. I could spend a whole weekend just exploring and taking pictures. I also can't recommend mountain stage enough. It's always an eclectic array of bands and it never disappoints. I think my favorite was Spirit Family Reunion, very old gospel/bluegrass/upbeat. I mean hell they even had a washboard player.

We also saw the pumpkin house (think the house that Christmas threw up on, with pumpkins) and a global market with fair-trade items. I think I just about have my Christmas shopping complete now. All that's left is my grandmother. No clue what to get her. Thoughts?

Anyway. Here's some pics. Sorry I don't have anything thrilling to write.


























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