i am too old for that shit. how did i used to go out to all hours of the night and be alive. at all.

after i got my hair blue, which was a four hour process bc it took foreverrrr to bleach it out bc i've got it dyed so dark, i met up with lish and some friends from home for my friend BJs bday. i felt like the old lady at the party, but i guess really i wasnt the oldest one there. all bj wanted for his bday was for us girls to dance with him at the 80s room, and bc i'm a nice person (and bc they kept mixing me some sort of delicious red drink) lish and i agreed to go to that hellhole. so i probably sweated out all the alcohol dancing. i still hate that place. its too smoky and too crowded with little douchebags and bitchs. i had just enough to drink that i had zero filter when talking to the guys when they tried to talk to me, and telling them exactly what i thought of them. i'm told at one point i told some poor kid that i could buy and sell his ass (probably true) and to please get his sorry ass away from me and go talk to someone with less self esteem. i left kinda early though, for morgantown standards, bc i couldnt breathe from all the smoke and my feet were killing me bc i wore my new green heels. and my feet hurt so bad right now i almost want to cry.

and then i got home and had to deal with some other bullshit that sent me right over the edge but the more i think about it the less i care. i'm over it. all of it. and then i couldnt sleep bc i was so mad and also freezing bc i couldn't get warmed up.

so now i need to force myself to get up and clean and then go to the gym. i didnt go yesterday and i feel like i cheated somehow, which is silly but i guess thats a good thing that i'm sticking to some sort of a real plan.

this threatened snowstorm could potentially keep some friends from coming in on sunday rather than today now, and i cant decide if i'm ok with that or not. i sort of like leaving life choices up to mother nature.

at any rate, starting the day kinda pissed off and achy is not how to do it, so i'm going to get moving and get over this piss poor attitude of mine. i hope everyone has a good day as well.