Well kids I bought a car. Finally.

Whew!

It took half the day and made me feel like I was going to throw up. But thanks to dads amazing negotiating skills I got a hell of a deal.

It is yet to be named. But it's a 2012 impreza hatchback. And I love it.




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Today I think I made a new friend. Or at least showed a stranger that I'm not a terrible person, which I think is a good thing. Sometimes fate finds people who have been equally screwed up and screwed over and says, hey, this person knows.

It's nice to genuinely be understood.

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I've really been debating lately on shutting my blog down. I rarely write anymore and I don't exactly have anything of worth to say. Mostly it was a place for me to spiral into and out of depression, and since things are pretty good right now for the most part, I feel like I've got nothin much to write. Plus there's only really two of you, Laura and Bethany, that read this (I think the rest is spambots) and I talk to both of you about more than what I ever put on here anyway. So I think I'll probably taper off here. Until my next big life crisis, which I hope (knock on wood) doesn't ever happen.

Tomorrow morning I'm doing a 5k for breast cancer. As this is something that has directly changed my family, of course I'm going to do it. I think this may be my last one of the season, and its definitely going to be the most fun- we have tutus to wear. Among an assortment of other accessories. It should be a lot of fun. It was so cold last year and I remember being miserable and having to think about all the people I knew fighting this stuff just to make it through. Hopefully this year will go better, but I'll be thinking of everyone just the same.

I have a list of people I pray for every night, whether bc they are ill or need help or bc I love them or bc I dislike them. Everyone who has ever read this is on that list. I don't know why I felt the need to type that, but know, out there, that I care about ya and hope your life is as wonderful as it can be.

Bethany got me this sign and I put it on my lamp so it's the first thing I see when I wake up:



That's how we all should live every day. Even when it hurts. Even when it's scary. Bc without love we have nothing.

I love all of you.

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Thank goodness for long weekends. I needed this one.

I'm still at home bc I'm in the midst of a new project. Namely getting fifty layers of paint off an old vanity mom found me:



I'm really excited to have this all said and done. New hardware, new padding and material for the bench, etc. I needed this kind of project today. Something to get my brain turned off.

Yesterday we made applebutter with the family, just like we've been doing for longer than I've been alive, longer than my parents have been alive. Probably longer than Mammaws been alive. I appreciate it now as a piece of my family history more than anything.

We also went down to the town fall festival. All growing up we would go to the pumpkin festival in Milton and stay with aunt dee and uncle Roy, and I miss doing that. But the sutton festival is a sad sad close second. Maybe fifty second. Hah.

I've been spending a lot of time in my head lately. It's time to get back on track and do better. I let myself get caught up in something that was nothing again. The so called Summer of Andrea was definitely something. I don't regret it, it's all been a learning experience. But I know what I want out of life and what I need, and also what I don't need. I just need to keep on keepin on.

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Settling back into work hasn't been as painful as I imagined it would be. Having finished everything for the upcoming week before I left really helped make this all easier I think. Everyone has been so nice about saying they missed me, whether it is true or not. It is nice to feel appreciated, either way.

It's a long weekend coming up, so I think I will probably go home for it. I want to vegetate, but I've been informed it's apple butter weekend, so put your orders in now if you want any. It's things like this that I appreciate more now that I'm older. I used to hate having to help stir off apple butter because it takes all damn day to do. But. Now it's nice to see everyone.

One of my neighbors back home passed in his sleep over the weekend and it's made me sad/uneasy. He was elderly and his wife had passed some time ago now, but he was just the nicest person, always with a smile on his face. I was close in age to his grandkids and I know they're all taking this rather hard. It makes me scared for losing Mammaw as she's my only grandparent still alive. She's incredibly healthy though, all things considered, so I feel it'll be ok for some time yet. What a morbid topic.

This evening I attempted to do some painting and it has failed miserably. I envisioned painting a quilt for mom for Christmas. This is how far I got before I got pissed and quit.



It worked out so much better in my head.

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