you know those websites that will calculate how much you are worth?

as it turns out, i didnt need one of those. as it turns out, i am worth less than $60k. in some instances i would say, wow, that is a lot of money. but then, it's just money. money isn't life. money doesnt have feelings or love or grow old or cry. as it turns out i might not have several of those things either, but not the point. the point is i'm worth less than $60k.

i know how caeser felt when brutus stabbed him in the back. brutus was a coward.

i'm just going to warn you now, any blog for the foreseeable future, if there are even any blogs period, will not be a happy or positive one. the cycle, the mess i have fought and fought for for so long is over. because of 60k and the possibility of disappointment.

i'm going to be dropping off the radar now. i made a promise and i will keep it even if it kills me.

sorry for being mopey.