my sleep patterns are all sorts of messed up lately. i actually really want to get back in an office setting just to have routine. that way at least when my brain gets too busy i'll have a reason to shut it down.
why is it that every person you know tells you exactly the same thing but you choose not to believe them. that you're sure you know better, you know how things -really- are. but you dont have any solid evidence to prove it, which just gives everyone else fodder to justify their judgment. do i give up? it would be the logical thing to do. have i ever been logical? well, yes. in pretty much every thing else i've been the pillar of logic and boring. so why do i bother about this. i've not gotten anything good out of it. i think it is bc i see what -could be- rather than -what is currently.-
new years resolution. not going to waste another day. but which is not wasting, keeping fighting for i know what's the right thing to do, or being logical and getting out of this situation.
hrmph.
today i feel no lovelove.
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