since when am i a painter?

painting for some reason makes sense to me lately. messy painting. i finished a nerdy painting for my intern, something from zelda i dont know but he likes it.

i have 4 other mini canvases for other people i need to figure out something to paint.

i had a good day with mom and dad. i think mostly they came up and spent the night to make sure i wasn't in the floor crying, surrounded by piles of trash. luckily this time around getting sad has made me clean a lot. to the point when i'm even thinknig of getting rid of some of my books. scary, i know.

my friend barb is expecting twin boys soon so i picked her up some baby clothes. and oh holy hell. baby boy clothes are so adorable. it really made that baby timer in me start ticking. i really have to sit down and start making some sort of life plan. bc i have goals. not for today or tomorrow, but in life. i guess what i'm trying to say is someday down the road i do want kids. and i want to be able to share that with someone.

life blah. i always have sort of a downer evening after having such a good weekend. but i'm gonna keep on with what i'm doing, bc it's better than sitting at home being sad.