the thing about going to the movies

i had to get out of the house this evening.

back up. that statement will probably be the basis of many posts for the next probably 2 months, seeing as there is still no word on office space. i'm getting creative with my 'free time' now.

anyway.

so i went and watched The Blindside. we all know i'm a sucker for lost cause learns courage type movies, and i may or may not secretly love sports movies of this nature in particular. so i put off seeing this for awhile. but it seemed like a good idea. so yeah. i was that person who embarrasses themselves for crying in a movie. call me extra emotional lately, but it was one of those feel good movies. and it made my twang bad for about six minutes. but it is based on a true story, and while not all stories turn out that well, it really is one of those things that i believe in. which is why someday i'd like to adopt, or at least be a foster parent. i want to help give someone out there an opportunity that they wouldnt otherwise have. i've always wanted to do this, and i will do this someday. not anytime soon. i need to sort my own shit out first. i dont think i'm in any kind of state to be a role model. but someday, i hope i can be.

so lately, i've been drawing trees. i dont draw. but i had this spare canvas from my failed painting attempt, and so i grabbed a sharpie and drew a tree. not a bright happy green thing, but a black silhouette bare limbs tree. and for being very stark, i actually really like it. i'd show you if i had that illusive camera. soon enough, that. but i dont know why the trees. it's always just one single tree. i like them because they are pretty resilient. even if a limb is torn off, they keep growing. if a barbed wire fence is in its path, it will grow around it. they offer protection and in some cases food. they live longer than people and document history. i sound like a character in Fern Gully. but. i put up my tree picture on my red wall. i felt like it was special enough to go up there. it's not well drawn by any standard, but it's important to me.

thats all i have to say right now.

lovelove. i guess.