i've had such a good day today. it's so good to see friends i've not seen in awhile. i've not seen brandon in nearly two years, which seems like forever. i know it was when crazy zach and i still lived out at lockwood, if that tells you anything.

i took everyone to golden finch to eat, and i believe no one was disappointed. we then went shopping, as you saw earlier. brandon and aimee had to go back his parents house, so shainna and i continued shoppin and then went to dinner with amanda at Puglionis, as that's shainna's favorite place in town and she hasnt been there in over four years now. which seems like even more forever. shainna and i have ended our lovely day watching Saved by the Bell and listenin to my drunk neighbors across the street.

i say it all the time but i'm so lucky to have such great people in my life. i know i dont get to see everyone as often as i would like, as people are spread out all over the place, but i know that they are there for me any time day or night. and i hope they all know that i am the same for them.

it somehow came up with brandons gf that i was previously engaged, and then i had to tell her the whole story. and having to tell it to a virtual stranger just makes me feel disgusted with myself. i know i thought i was doing the right thing. you do stupid shit when youre in love, what can i say. but as shainna is very quick to remind me, i dodged a very big, very crazy, very drunk bullet. i sometimes miss the companionship, and sure i sometimes miss the zach from the beginning. but having to relive the last year to this girl, i stopped and wonder what exactly it was i was even thinking. live and learn though i guess. plus, i'm told that in his facebook photo that he looks incredibly fat. and call me spiteful, but that feels good, especially bc i've recently dropped another five pounds (go me!) and am actually getting some muscle tone in my arms. those effing push-ups are doing their job.

it is wonderful to see brandon so happy, and i wholeheartedly approve of aimee. and its wonderful to see shainna so happy and excited about the upcoming sprout baby. am i jealous, sure. absolutely. but i'm so completely happy for each of them, that it completely surpasses any jealous feelings. i know my day will come and i know they'll be just as happy for me as i am for all of them.

as for now, i'm going to go to sleep so that tomorrow can be another excellently fun day with great people. i hope everyone is having a great weekend (the weather! it is so nice!!).

love and sunshine :)