thinkin and thinkin

i've been thinking (when don't we?) and i've felt, overall, pretty good this last week. maybe thats bc of the sunshine, maybe its bc the drugs are working, maybe its bc i'm finally starting to be in a better (i wont say good, exactly, but i will say better) place with myself. and it's weird to look at something from, maybe not the other side, maybe not from something better, but from something different.

i dont know. i cant explain it. i miss some things, but i know whatever this is is 8000% healthier.

and i have this song stuck in my head.

however all that aside, its nice to be called buttercup, and it not be used to hurt my feelings.