do you ever have dreams that are so unsettling that you wonder if that's what you are really thinking that you want or that maybe it really just is some sort of nightmare? i woke up with a real pain in my chest in a panic because of the things i was trying to say (but couldn't get out) in my dream. instead, i kept taking pictures of the past.

more than anything in my life, i'm afraid of letting people down.

meh.