i need someone to tell me that things are going to be ok. bc i don't see how that is possible right now.

how can someone love me and do this? i understand depression. i understand what a major sickness it is. but there is nothing ok about what has transpired. you cant go back from this. you cant just say sorry, send some flowers, and promise a lifetime without lies.

i dont know how i am ever going to trust again. and that is the worst thing a person can feel, that they dont know what to believe, who to believe. what is the point now?

i feel like i'm fraying around the edges. i cant be the one who is strong for everyone.

i am in shock. i'm confused. i'm hurt. and i cant function.