a year in rewind

so i've been laying here reading through all my posts for the year 2010. they're really all over the place, arent they?

i guess you dont realize how bad things were until you can look back on it. and last winter, i was a mess. thank the good lord for anti-depressants. and you people, bc you listened to my rambling mess and were here for me through the whole thing.

i am proud of myself, bc once i realized i had to do something, things in my life really started turning around. i got help, i got a new job, i got a new living space. i got the stranger.

common trends throughout my posts were: how the weather changes my moods (we knew that already though), crazy dreams i've had, and random childhood memories.

there has been some of the same old worries, same old 'what ifs'. but i've got a whole new set of what ifs ahead of me. and i know for the first time that they are good what ifs. that i'm important in the grand scheme of things and that i have a future. The Stranger has done more good for me than he'll ever realize. i fully believe that the universe and eharmony got it right hand picking him for me.

i've tried to do good things this year charity wise, and i know this wont change next year. i feel better when i can do things for others and i think i always will.

i've had a lot of fun memories including going to the nuthouse for my birthday, getting to spend time with brandon and mandy in the summer, the gator pool goodness, everything that has happened with my job and the friends i've made there, extra special christmas gifts, trips to see everyone in the tri-state area, etc. i have many many things to be thankful for.

there are a lot of changes that are going to occur in 2011 and i'm equally happy and scared for them. there's still no set date for the wedding, which is ok really, i dont mind if it is in 2012. then there are several other things coming up, like whether the Stranger decides to go to law school, and where, that could change a lot of things. like where we live. while i love our little townhouse, it is just that, too little for the two of us and our stuff. so even if we dont move, we're probably going to move at some point.

i'm not going to pretend that i have a clue about this next year. but i know i'm in a better place and i can see when my ups and downs happen and have a better idea of how to deal with them. in fact i'm going back to the doctor on tuesday just to get my medicine tweaked bc i realize i've been sliding down again. and i want to head that off. a good start to a new year. going to the gym, trying my damnedest to keep my head above water.

and for now, i'm going to lay here and read for another hour, before i go pretty myself up for a NYE with some of the people i love the most in this zipcode. i hope everyone has a great new year and know that i love each and every one of you and i'm grateful to have you in my life.

I love Joe Beth bookstore in Lexington. I took the last of my winnings and bought two tshirts. But not just any shirt, oh no. Book cover image tshirts. http://www.outofprintclothing.com/Shop_a/152.htm

Do you know how hard it is for me to choose?! I finally settled on pride and prejudice and lord of the flies. I want them all. The nerd in me squeals with joy.


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I finally watched Inception last night. I can see the draw of wanting to live out life in the dream a little to clearly. My dream world would be nothing like this. Does that mean I'm unhappy or just have a good imagination?

We are heading back to Morgantown today. I've had a really good time visiting Laura and Mark. I wish they lived closer. Who knows, maybe we will end up here, restoring one of these beautiful old houses.

I'm in a weird mood. I blame it on how grey it is outside. Meh.


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Day two of vacation, why am I awake before noon? This is unacceptable!

So overall I would say the holidays have gone pretty well. Once you get past the family drama, waking up first on Christmas only bc I have a migraine, and your friend nearly driving over the hill bc your road is solid ice, I'd say it was pretty good indeed. I got the usual assortment of books (hooray Pride and Prejudice and Zombies graphic novel!), movies (Shirley temple, much to the strangers dismay), and clothes. I still haven't figured out where or how I lost my black dress coat, but I got a very awesome military-ish one to replace it. And a new north face fleece bc I don't know if you know this but it's damn cold out there.

My mom, being my mom thought it'd be funny to get the stranger a ridiculous gift. Luckily he's ridiculous enough to play along. So for a better part of two days I saw this walking around:




Can you take that seriously? Bc I can't. Haha.

My friend kellie and her husband came to visit and forgot what it's like to drive in wv in winter and nearly put their car over the hill. Dad and the stranger had to go rescue them, so that was how they met for the first time. She was more than impressed and had wholeheartedly given her blessing. Especially to his accent, haha. It seems to win everyone over.

So now I'm in Lexington enjoying the first part of my vacation with Laura, mark, and Weezer the dog. Last night we saw quite possibly the most amazing (and by that I mean horrifying) karaoke on the planet. An epic win for all in attendance.

Speaking of winning, I totally hustled the stranger for an obscene amount of money on Sunday. He kept betting me that he'd get a better score at the dance game on Kinect than I would. I tripled his measly score more than once. Being the type who can't handle losing, we kept going. I had a lovely time spending my winnings at Express yesterday and I have my eye on a Uk hoodie that he will be purchasing today. Winning is GOOD.

I have no clue what we are doing the rest of the week. For now I'm enjoying being able to sleep and read as much as I please and getting to spend time with people I don't often get to see.


I hope your holiday was a good one and that you've got your new year goal. I'm still trying to decide on mine. I've got a pretty good idea.

Much love in this cold and snowy weather!







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Merry Christmas from my crazy family to yours!!




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Who has two thumbs and got a kindle and book gift card for Christmas?

Excuse me while I fall off the planet for the foreseeable future.

Yay reading!!!!!

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headache and the holidays

this holiday season, besides the migraine that kept me at home today, has actually started out really wonderful. I really enjoyed spending time with the Stranger in Laws. they are fun and they are really great to me and I'm thankful for that. they spoiled the hell out of me like i really was one of their own.

we stopped in charleston on the way home to see moms side of the family at their big christmas party. all my aunts are in love with the Stranger and the way he talks. they kept making him say different words and even made him count to sixty. haha. i was embarrassed but he seemed to enjoy himself and it all went great. until the whole getting pulled over by the state police. as it turns out, my plates have been expired since June. woops! thats what i get for counting on dad to keep my car in shape. so that will all be taken care of when we head to braxton in a few days.

yesterday we had a christmasy lunch at work. i cant say enough about how much i love my job and the people i work with. they arent just coworkers, they are some of my best friends.

however today i feel like death with a migraine. i suppose life cant be perfect all the time. i did get a lot done workwise while i watched Golden Girls all day. and when the Stranger gets home we're having surprise dinner and then playing Kinect. or probably, me continuing to lay on the couch watching the Stranger attempt to play the dance game. God love him, he's terrible at it. he has rhythm but trying to do preset dancing is beyond him. i spent part of the evening last night yelling 'right clap left clap back two three four fist pump fist pump robot two three four' i spent more time laughin than anything.

i really want some brie.

i'm excited for the rest of this week. this holiday season is so much different than last years. this whole winter is so much better than the last. i cant even begin to put it all into words. thank you lord for antidepressants. and a multitude of other things, haha.

also, happy late bday to the CRJ all the way out in the middle of nowhere.

i hope everyone is having a good day/week/christmas season. much love to all of you