i was reading brandon's blog and he wrote this big important post because of this photo:



and his was this smart plan about winning the lotto and stocks and stability and being pretty smart about his future.

i would not do these things. i have enough money to live on. if i could do whatever i want for the next 24 hours i'd get zach and my closest friends and family and go to topsail island and just sit and enjoy the beach and each other.

there are always jobs. always enough money if i'm willing to scrounge and live cheaply. but if i could have one day of total happiness, then i think i would be ok.

i feel like this story isnt over. it's not me being stubborn. i just have to be stronger.

Today was our last day at the Hit Center for awhile. And you know what? It was really sad. I am genuinely going to miss those guys. I can't afford to keep going there but I know without them busting my ass that I'd still be a blob and my winter depression would probably be at an all time
High.

We did lean muscle/fat bod pod And I'm gaining muscle faster than I can get the fat off. So I need to do more cardio. Which is good bc I want to do Zumba.

I'm going to do this.

I found out today too that once again, if I thought abt DC, that it probably wouldn't happen til summer. Which maybe that is good. I need to calm down and seriously think abt what it is I'm doing.

I know what I want to do. But that's been said.

I'm not lying when I say I I have no idea what my future holds.

But thank you my friends for always being here for me.

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